Outside Reading #1: The Problem of Pain
“You may have noticed that the books you really
love are bound together by a secret thread. You know very well what is the
common quality that makes you love them, though you cannot put it into words:
but most of your friends do not see it at all, and often wonder why, liking
this, you should also like that. Again, you have stood before some landscape,
which seems to embody what you have been looking for all your life; and then
turned to the friend at your side who appears to be seeing what you saw -- but
at the first words a gulf yawns between you, and you realise that this
landscape means something totally different to him, that he is pursuing an
alien vision and cares nothing for the ineffable suggestion by which you are
transported. Even in your hobbies, has there not always been some secret
attraction which the others are curiously ignorant of -- something, not to be
identified with, but always on the verge of breaking through, the smell of cut
wood in the workshop or the clap-clap of water against the boat's side? Are not
all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human
being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even in the best) of that
something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other
desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night
and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching
for, listening for? You have never had it. All the things that have ever deeply
possessed your soul have been but hints of it -- tantalising glimpses, promises
never quite fulfilled, echoes that died away just as they caught your ear. But
if it should really become manifest -- if there ever came an echo that did not
die away but swelled into the sound itself -- you would know it. Beyond all
possibility of doubt you would say "Here at last is the thing I was made
for". We cannot tell each other about it. It is the secret signature of each
soul, the incommunicable and unappeasable want, the thing we desired before we
met our wives or made our friends or chose our work, and which we shall still
desire on our deathbeds, when the mind no longer knows wife or friend or work.
While we are, this is. If we lose this, we lose all.”
In this passage Lewis goes into an interesting topic of an invisible force that seems to tie people together. This force can be seen in all relationships. It is in the writing of poems and literature. This force is the longing for purpose and to be completely fulfilled. If we fill it with lovers and friends when we reach the end of our lives the longing will return. So what were we made for? What can fill the longing in a way that relationships cannot?
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